What are you Thankful for…..

As you sit down with your friends and loved ones this holiday to celebrate the European invasion and colonization of Plymouth Massachusetts, aka Thanksgiving I think it is only right, that we as citizens, parents, neighbors so on and so forth take a moment to do what our school system is not and teach the youth what really happened all those years ago.

Over 15 million Native Americans were brutally murdered. Not teaching, or recognizing this truth, erasing an entire race of people from our history books is deceptive and we are in FACT lying to our children when we do not inform them of the FACTS. We simply can not allow our history to be erased or rewritten as it has been so many times in the past.

It is up to us.

So this is my personal take on Thanksgiving………

They have commercialized these holidays to pull us away from the true facts and meanings of things.

Turkeys are associated with Thanksgiving just as Santa Claus and The Easter Bunny lies are synonymous with Christmas and Easter….

It is brainwashing at its infinite level through the guise of innocence, they are constantly goading us, pushing us to consume, consume, consume, because consumption equals happiness. The day after Thanksgiving is not called Black Friday for nothing…..

So let’s take a look at the lie…

We dress up in Pilgrim costumes and as Native Americans to reenact history. When in FACT we are only perpetuating and teaching our children a lie. Why not tell them the TRUTH about the Pilgrims and Natives?

Or history books briefly, yet clearly express “The American Tradition” like such:

After some exploring, the Pilgrims chose the land around Plymouth Harbor for their settlement. Unfortunately, they had arrived in December and were not prepared for the harsh New England Winter. However, they were aided by friendly Indians, who gave them food and showed them how to grow corn. When the warm weather came the colonist planted, fished, hunted and prepared themselves for the next winter. After harvesting their first crop, they and their Indian friends celebrated their first Thanksgiving.

Why is nothing mentioned about the plague that ravaged and significantly reduced the Native population?

When Columbus arrived in the New World and domesticated animals, it brought about disease such as Cowpox which led to Smallpox and was spread when the infected Europeans gifted the Natives with blankets.  I believe this very relevant fact is left out intentionally as this would hardly produce a friendly relationship between the two cultures.

In my research I have learned that a good majority of the Pilgrims and Europeans thought of the Natives as heathens, savages, treacherous and even satanic.  Then Governor of Massachusetts Bay Colony, John Winthrop, was noted for calling the plague miraculous. In 1634, he wrote to a friend in England:

But for the Natives in these parts, God hath so pursued them, as for 300 miles of space the greatest part of them are swept away by the small pox which still continues among them. So as God hath thereby cleared our title to this place, those who remain in these parts, being in all not fifty, have put themselves under our protect…..

Lets look into what that looked like:

The Pequot Massacre in 1637. The colonist found a white man dead in his boat. They decided he had been murdered and 90 armed settlers burned a Native Village along with their crops then demanded the Natives turn in the murderer. The Natives refused and a massacre followed.

Captain John Mason and his colonist army surrounded a fortified Pequot village and shouted: “ We must burn them! Such a dreadful terror let the Almighty fall upon their spirits so that they would flee from us and run into the very flames. Thus did the Lord judge the Heathen filling this place with dead bodies.”  The few surviving Pequot were hunted and slain.

Then the Governor of Plymouth, William Bradford was noted to further elaborate:

Those that escaped the fire were slain with the sword; some were hewed to pieces, others ran through with their rapiers, so that they were quickly dispatched and very few escaped. It was conceived that they thus destroyed about 400 at this time. It was a fearful sight to see them thus frying in the fire….horrible was the stink and the scent thereof, but the victory seemed a sweet sacrifice, and they gave the prayers thereof to God, who had wrought so wonderfully for them. 

The day after the massacre the Governor of The Massachusetts Bay Colony declared A day of Thanksgiving, thanking God that they had eliminated over 700 men, women and children. “It shall be signed into law that, this day forth shall be a day of celebration and thanksgiving for subduing the Pequots.”

We could delve deeper into the historical lies and chat about Squanto, the Wampanoag man who as our history books cite learned English to help the hungry, ill and poor pilgrims.. Laughable at best….. History says Squanto learned English from an English Fisherman who ventured into New England every summer. It also states that Squanto taught the Pilgrims  how to plant corn, squash and pumpkins. It is highly likely that the small band of settlers would not have survived without his help… But this is something we will never know for sure.

History books state that the first Thanksgiving was in 1621. It is true that there was a feast that year, but it was NOT called a Thanksgiving Feast nor was it repeated until years later the day after the Pequot massacre in 1637.

I think a better line of questioning or research into Squanto is in order.  How did Squanto really learn English?  Well, as a boy, in 1605 Squanto was stolen by a British captain and was taken to England. He worked for a Plymouth merchant who eventually helped him with passage back to Massachusetts, but less than a year later he and 24 of  his fellow Natives were kidnapped by a British slave trader. Squanto and his fellow Natives were sold into slavery in Spain. Squanto escaped slavery, journeyed back to England and convinced the captain of a trade ship to take him along on his next trip to Cape Cod in 1619.

Upon entering his village he came to the horrific realization that he was the only surviving member of his tribe. The rest were killed in battle or taken out by disease. They exclude his enslavement in order to paint a pretty picture and to glorify the Europeans and erase the struggles of the Native people.

Our history is being turned into pretty myths and illusions of grandeur, fairy tales and bedtime stories, we are eliminating historical facts that offer us invaluable lessons from the past to not repeat in the present and further destroy our future.These are valuable, meaningful truths about our present as well as our future.

What good is teaching history in schools if it is not accurate and honest account of civilizations, cultures and events. Why fill our youth with a body of ethnocentric and premeditive alterations?

Truth is Thanksgiving is full of embarrassing truths about we as a people. The Pilgrims DID NOT introduce the Native Americans to the tradition. Eastern Indians observed annual Harvest Celebrations for centuries. Our Modern Holiday only dates back to 1863. It was not until the 1890’s that the Pilgrims were included in the tradition, hell they weren’t even called Pilgrims until 1870.

I am not writing this to make anyone feel bad about celebrating Thanksgiving, I am not saying we should not celebrate it. None of us are responsible for the heinous acts of our ancestors. We did not cause the plagues or massacres. But I think it is important as human beings to be honest about our History, about holidays.

Many of you may wonder why I am saying any of this?

How does it pertain to you?

It is simple. History that is not inclusive is dangerous, it promotes racism and prejudice and promulgates the negative vortex of dishonesty. It is fine to spend time with our friends and loved ones. It is important to be thankful, and there is nothing wrong with setting aside a day to be thankful. But in reality we should be thankful every day. If we are going to be thankful on this day perhaps we should be thankful for those who gave their lives rather unwillingly so that we could celebrate this day. Lets just be honest tho, we are celebrating a very unfair and unwarranted onslaught of thievery, murder, rape and more.

America was not settled or colonized, it was stolen with brute force. Perhaps we should be thankful that the sentient beings from elsewhere have not openly taken our land…..yet

Gobble Gobble…….


To Thine Own Self Be True

Something I had a hard time understanding and am still working on mastering is being completely true to myself. I have never been selfish or self centered even though that is indicative of my astrological sign I have always had a heart for others, not so much for myself. But I learned in recovery and through working with others just how important self love is. I learned that if you constantly give of yourself and never to yourself you run out of steam, some of us get Jaded others fall off and do drugs six of one half a dozen of the other.

Well for the first time in 12 years Jupiter has set herself in the house of Libra…If you close your eyes you can literally see the energy shift and certainly we all feel it. Whether or not we recognize what we are feeling is an entirely different thing and I am going to try and give some astrological insight into this.

I am seriously expecting this astronomical phenomena to be probably one of the biggest changes since Jupiter is essentially the largest planet out of all the others plus the fact   when  Jupiter  aligns  within Libra it unleashes a great expansion, good fortune, and abundance.However, there is a lot one must do in order to prepare for this major shift in our everyday lives.

It is important that we are able to master the art of self-love, otherwise, if we decide to go into this major shift without balancing ourselves first then one should expect dire consequences with decisions based on close mindedness and any other negative thoughts that one could potentially have.

You must be able to find the key to your happiness, whatever it looks like in that moment in time, and go for it. In order for us to be able to witness all of the amazing potential of this major shift we are going to have to realize just how much we matter, not only to others, but to ourselves.

We must be able to take things slow, figure out what we want to see the most improvement in, and let ourselves grow over time to achieve the things we want to see as apart of this major change.

It’s been 12 years since Jupiter was aligned inside of Libra. Think back 12 years ago when the last time we were dealing with this major shift. What did you look like then? How did you improve yourself? Are you a lot happier compared to the last time this happened?

Some of you may even think that it’s a bit selfish to focus only on yourself during this period of time, however, the more you are able to focus on the things you want to see change the more it will effect your relationship with everything else in the world.

When you are able to say that you are truly happy and that you wish to help others achieve this same kind of happiness is when you’ve figured out what you need in order to feel balanced within yourself.

Not everyone is capable of self-love, this is something that we must keep in mind.

If you think that certain friends of yours are still having troubles figuring out what happiness really means to them, you can tell them that they must dig deep inside in order to see what that is.

No one else is going to make their happiness for them,or yours for you one must take the first step in truly getting to know themselves, seeing what makes them smile, and what it’s going to take for them to accomplish having that happiness in their life.

Of course,   many others will be there with their opinions and ideas help, but this is a journey that most of us have to figure out alone.

Keep all the negative thoughts away, balance yourselves, and keep fighting for your happiness as this major shift takes place. Because there are two sides to every coin and perspective is key…I have decided there needs to be change and it must start with me.



Hepatitis C

Several emails have come in asking about alternative treatments for Hepatitis C.

Well beings that hepatitis C often leads to liver cancer and Hep C related cirrhosis remains the primary indicator for liver transplants I was sure that if I dug deep enough there would be some corruption, followed by a simple solution. (I made myself a simple promise “I will attempt not to get to enraged by the corruption and quickly to the solution”and set out with answers to find)

#HepatitisC is a liver disease that causes the organ to be inflamed. This inflammation is red swelling caused by injury or infection. This inflammation can cause organs to stop working properly. The liver is a very important organ. It has a lot of functions such as fighting infections, removing harmful chemicals from the blood, and it helps the body digest food. The human body cannot live without a liver. This is an essential organ. The cause of hepatitis C is the hepatitis C virus. The virus is similar to the flu virus but can affect the body more severely. There are many symptoms of hepatitis C such as jaundice, loss of appetite and fever  This virus can be diagnosed with a blood test. The test can also determine if you have chronic or any other type of hepatitis. There is no treatment for this medical issue unless you have the chronic form. If you are diagnosed with chronic hepatitis C,  prescription medication will be given to treat this prescription medication with horrible side effects and well I am still researching the quality of life after these “cures” they are selling, because whenever I look at them I see a skull and crossbones…

So if we do our research and go to the root I am certain it has already been proven in some hidden study the different cannabinoids and what they are capable of within the liver…. fast forward it seems that recently a better understanding of how the endocannabinoid system functions within the liver and the proposal of using CB1 receptor antagonists to blockade the endocannabinoid response within the liver. This would reduce the accumulation of fat in the liver and lessen insulin resistance.

Cannabinoids such as THCV and CBD should be of value when blocking the CB1 receptors in the liver. Cannabinoids that activate CB2 receptors ie:CBD should help in protecting the liver from damage caused by Hep C. My feeling is the least possible amount of Thc as possible and more CB1 antagonist such as THCV and CBD will be helpful in protecting the liver from additional damage and CBD actually helps repair the liver….

If you chose to do conventional poison 25 mg of THC could help negate some of the side effects of your western treatments and help reduce nausea and vomiting during that cycle.  Oral cannabis medicines provide the longest sustained relief providing you can keep them down during acute nausea. Perhaps vaporizing would provide faster relief and can be easily dosed by those with little experience?

White Widow, Harlequin and OG Kush have reportedly good results

My limited medical education gives me the opportunity to keep it simple go to the root and find tools to deal at the root…. Seems to me THCV and CBD might be as effective without harmful side effects associated with conventional poisoning

Mandala Effect

Those of you that follow me on my talk show know that at the beginning of the first few episodes I was saying that I wanted to bring into clear focus both good and evil and went on to explain why….

Perhaps all of this exposing of the negative forces of evil are giving them more life more power, perhaps even creating the reality because we agree that it is so, we agree that it is truth and we agree that it has power over us.

I recently awakened in a new way. Instead of my former plan of exposing things that are dark I have decided to talk share and plan for solutions rather than communicate the problem. We can lead ourselves, we can survive even thrive without government corporations banks, money greed and fear, weapons violence etc, but only if we collectively agree that they are not desired or needed.

We the people are being played in much more sinister ways than mere greed, even those of us trying to communicate the truth. The commodity our enslavers desire is not money or gold but our essence, our being our souls.

Our thoughts and energy should be spent seeking goodness rather than exposing believing in and recognizing evil. Why discuss financial matters when the truth is humans are the only species on the planet to pay to live here. Why have we all collectively accepted this as normal or necessary? Why do we argue over gun rights instead of collectively agreeing not to kill our fellow man? Why are we allowing technology to advance while our species is mindlessly connecting to the matrix and de evolving at an alarming pace?

If we want change perhaps we should stop trying to use intellect and logic to understand why and what is happening and rather use love and a childlike mind to create the world we desire and deserve? The more we learn of evil the more we believe in its power the more we actually fuel and create it. Seek Goodness and Kindness and Light in all that you do. Chose your thoughts wisely for what you think is what creates your reality


If you have been following my story you know that I am working with an amazing healer from another country, it has come to my mind that he really is not human at all, he is an awareness like me attempting to be human, he’s doing an amazing job! In fact I could be so cheesy as to coin Rob Zombie and say that he is more human than the humans, because he has empathy and a moral code and he actually heals people He takes herbs grown out of this earth and infuses it with quantum Light technology and literally reprograms your DNA.

Being a medical anomaly as he has classified me has made my case difficult at best. But he has not abandoned me! While these amazing and rare true healers are being murdered every day he tirelessly continues his work and I am his project. The other day I was having an extremely rough day slipping in and out of awareness and dimensions for lack of a better word, I was speaking to people who have long since shed this earthly form and I was ready to be there with them. They however were not ready to be with me and it was extremely difficult for me to come back but I did it because my room is not prepared.

At any rate I was telling doctor that I’m different and always have been and anyways to make a long story short he informed me that I am different. I am made from Stardust like everyone else but my star is magical and transcends space time and dimensions. It is a vessel star. Anyways so I have been on a learning experience every since reading all the articles that I can find that agree with this theory and it has scientific evidence to back it up.

The idea that everyone and thing here on earth contains tiny little star particles dates back much farther than Moby’s popular 2002 song “we are all made of stars”

In the 80’s an astronomer named Carl Sagan hosted a 13 part mini series called “The Cosmo’s”. It aired on PBS and on this show Sagan thoroughly explains many science related topics, including but not limited to earth’s history, evolution, the origin of life and the solar system.” We are a way for the Universe to know itself. Some part of our being knows this is where we came from and longs to return, and we can because the cosmos is also within us. We are made of star stuff!” Carl Sagan


He goes on to state that carbon, nitrogen and oxygen, the atoms in our bodies, as well as atoms of all other heavy elements were created in previous generations of stars over 4.5 billion years ago. Because humans and every other animal on this planet as well as the planet itself contain these elements. “We are literally made up of star stuff” Said Chris Impey, professor of astronomy at The University of Arizona. ” All organic matter containing carbon was produced originally in the stars” Impey told life’s little mysteries. “The universe was originally hydrogen and helium, the carbon was made subsequently over billions of years”In 2002 when Mosby released his song We are all made of stars  he explained during an interview that his lyrics were inspired by quantum physics (the treatment I am currently using to beat cancer). He said “On a basic quantum level, all of the matter in the universe is made up of stardust.”

More recently Symphony of Science an artistic project headed by John Boswell, designed to deliver scientific knowledge through musical remixes, released ” we are all connected” the song features clips from Sagan’s we are made of star stuff proclamation. Carl Sagan and my doctor, Mosby, the Symphonic Symphony etc are not alone in their beliefs they are joined by great minds like Albert Durant Washington, Doris Lessing, Harlow Shapely, Vincent Cronin. William E Barton, The Group named anonymous hell even the ancient Serbian Proverbs even lay claim to the idea that from the stars we came and to the stars we shall return….

The chemical elements of life such as carbon, magnesium, and calcium were originally created in the interior furnaces of the stars and then they were released by stellar explosions. This fact has been beautifully expressed with a beautiful poetic resonance. Three examples I have found are as follows”

we are made of star stuff

our bodies are made of star stuff

there are pieces of star within us all


In 1973 Carl Sagan published  The Cosmic Connection an Extra Terrestrial Perspective, which included the following passage

Our Sun is a second or third generation star, All of the rocky and metallic material we stand on, the iron in our blood, the calcium in our teeth, the carbon in our genes were produced billions of years ago in the interior of a red giant star. We are made of star stuff.

In 1913 a North Carolina Columnist pointed out that the Sun and The Earth were made of star stuff. This implied that humans were also made of star stuff, however it was not directly stated.

The spectroscope analyzes the light if you please, and shows what it is made of. What was the surprise of the tireless searchers when they found the common earth metals burning in the mighty sun! There was once a little girl who cried out for joy when she realized for one little moment that the earth is truly a heavenly body, and that no matter what was happening to us we are really living right up among the stars. The sun is made of star stuff and the earth is made of the earth is made of the same material put together with a difference.

In 1918 the President of The Royal Astronomical Society of Canada delivered a speech with the phrase “our bodies are made up of star stuff” he seemed to be reaching for a quasi spiritual interpretation for this fact

it is true that a first thoughtful glimpse of the immeasurable universe is liable rather to discourage us with a sense of our own insignificance, But astronomy is wholesome even in this, and helps to clear the way to a realization that as our bodies are an integral part of the great physical universe, so through them are manifested laws and forces that take rank with the highest manifestation of cosmic being.

thus we came to see that if our bodies are made of star stuff and there is nothing else says the spectroscope to make them of- the loftier qualities of our being are just as necessarily constituents of that universal substance out of which are made.

whatever gods there be

we are made of universal and divine ingredients, and the study of the stars will not let us escape a wholesome and final knowledge of this fact.

In 1921 a Michigan newspaper columnist released an advertisement that said  We are all made of dust. But it’s Stardust

and later a Doctor William E Barton, a contributor to the New Evening News said there is some comfort in the fact that astronomers know how to tell what sort of stuff those stars are made of and ho one bright speck up there in the sky lacks something other stars have. Odd, though that human beings have in their makeup about ALL the different elements that ALL of the stars have. 

we are made of the same stuff as the stars so when we study astronomy we are in a way studying our remote ancestry and our place in the universe of star stuff. Our very bodies consist of the same chemical elements found in the most distant nebulae and our activities are guided by the same universal rules.


I am going to leave you to ponder these thoughts and later will tie them all together with my journey to total health and healing, to hope trumping fear and ridding the world of needless suffering through natural healing and global awareness…..

I leave you with this. You are uniquely and wonderfully made out of the same things as the stars so in essence you are all stars so let your lights shine bright


Here I stand on a corner

Under a streetlamp.

Rain pouring,

masking salty streams on my cheeks

An empty hole in my stomach grows.

The void of unreturned love swallows me whole.

I look to the heavens for reason

Is there a manipulator pulling my hidden marionette strings

Laughing from behind the clouds

No,We are just figurines made of popsicle sticks to be easily broken in two

We glue ourselves back together

Healed but never whole

Alive but scarred.

These badges of pain

We carry till the final sleep.

We hate them for they taint our conceived notions of beauty.

We never understand our patch-worked hearts

and sutured souls define us

We are pieces of wood

Made unique with the splintering of strife

I wipe tears in the rain

My chest full with ragged shards of my heart

I glance at my feet,

See no puppeteer strings

To make me dance and sing.

That alone is up to me.

I begin to walk,

In search of glue